THE ITCH

I have had the itch to begin blogging again for about a month.  It is a welcome itch rather than an annoying one because it tells me that, at least in some ways, my emotions are leveling out and I'm starting to feel more like myself again.

Ever since I can remember, I have loved two things:  music and writing.  Music is still hobbling along for a lot of complicated reasons, but I'm really missing the writing.  Thus, the blog return.

I never knew what a blessing my children are until we all became swallowed whole by the mission we pursued for a couple of years at the local children's home.  I mean, I became a mother for a reason, and I love my children - I adore them! - but I see them with different, thankful, drink-them-up eyes now.  It felt like they were taken from me for a season.  That season was dark and stressful, and no matter how I tried to brighten it or pray it well or cram more time into each day, it never really got easier.

I am so thankful to have had time for Bennett to play football this fall, and watch him at every single game.  I am so grateful to have the time and energy to go to their school parties and field trips and fun days.  The boys are going to play baseball in the Spring and the thought of them both in their tiny little baseball pants and caps is enough to make me squeal :).  We can go to birthday parties, be in church productions, volunteer our time more freely, etc. etc. etc.

I lost a lot, and after six months, I am finally re-making important connections and rebuilding my life.  Friendships are becoming whole and well-rounded again, I am enjoying working part-time and being around other people for a few hours each week.  Things that were a burden have become a delight again.  Thank you, Lord.

So the plan is to blog and post pictures and actually communicate with people again here, especially for extended family's sake :).  If you decide to follow along again after such a long hiatus, thanks for caring and loving us and being so patient with me in everything life changes have entailed.